"MASS" written by JIVA

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There’s a bigness in me

The kind that feels like the whole of the universe

All its celestial bodies

Crushing into this heart of flesh

I am heavy with the weight of so much marvel in the world 

Of all my potential yet to unfurl

Of all that will remain untapped 

The beauty of this existence shines like pain

The anguish sparkles like gems

I breathe around the spaces where the light gets in

Each tiny bubble breaking the barrier is a gasp against drowning in this majestic madness

I’m not certain I am of this world

The magnitude of what cannot be expressed seems wasted in this finite vessel

For surely stars would explode at the full force of me

The swelling pressure that longs for connection spills and swirls 

Pushing at the backs of my eyelids

Flooding my soul with aching sighs 

My inspiration calls from the deepest recesses

Buried engines of lost civilizations thrumming to life under the ruins of all that’s come before

It shudders and stirs

Shifting the sands of the real to reveal a hint of sonic supernova

The crashing waves of all conceivable feeling and thought, every parallel path as it forks into a reality all its own, the prismatic spectrum of emotion, words words words words words words.

This is the hum, the din, the roar, the screaming buzz of every past, present, future 

Colliding in fits of fists inside this strained shell

This is the rush of Purusha and Prakriti, the thrum of creation and destruction

This is the breath of the me that exists beyond my temporary skin

And I don’t know if I can bear it

Or if it will sink me into the surface like so many lifetimes before

I forge stronger bones and sinews as I carve out new release valves

Lest this stone inside my chest expand and pull me over another rocky ledge

I blink back the ocean, blinded by the beauty on this edge

Every blood cell sings inside my veins as I ease a toe onto the tightrope

Eyes attuned to the patterns of all things, I may never know unbearable lightness

Save these few sweet moments when the cacophony coalesces and erupts from me a symphony